life is the results of past decisions

別儲存快樂

2008-04-20T18:20:00.000-07:00

今天我在星洲日報的副刊读到一篇短短来自冰果的文章，题目是別儲存快樂，其文章如下

“愚癡的我，近來才領悟到一個道理。生命中充滿過程，相比起來，成果卻不多──過程的時光多，成果通常只是一陣子而已。
小學6年，畢業只一天。中學6年，畢業只一天。大學3年，畢業也只一天。
我們總是計劃計劃計劃，沒想到變化總是快過計劃。我們總是幢憬幢憬幢憬，把快樂延後推、延後推，放在達到目標時。
結果一生中，去日苦多。
何必呢？
要在過程中，就開始享受快樂。快樂被儲存，又不會生利息。能夠在過程中快樂的人，就先賺到了。
所以有孩子的人，不要叫孩子他們用功讀書用功讀書用功讀書，然後放假才帶他們去旅行。平日常帶他們到公園玩一玩、海邊走一走、看一場電影，看他們把歡笑釋放出來。
不要累積快樂，快樂要在每個日子裡散發散發散發，才不會發酸。
就如在畫一本漫畫，不要等到出版時才歡喜慶祝，那只是一剎那的歡樂而已，在過程中，就要享受創作的樂趣。
唸書時，就讓孩童嚐嚐學習的樂趣。不能只期待得到文憑的快樂。
成果的欣喜，有時只一瞬間就消失，然後更加空虛低落。
不如去享受過程的快樂，細水長流，一點點、一滴滴，反而是雋永的。
生命的過程，真的很長很長，不懂得享受過程，以為快樂只出現在終點，實在太吃虧了。
不要忘了，人生的終點有時候比預期來得早、來得突然，根本來不及享受。金庸說得好：“到頭這一生，難逃那一日。受用了一朝，一朝便宜。”
所以，工作時，別等到賺到一桶金才開心，應該日日勤奮之際，也讓心情放輕鬆一些。隨時體味生活中的小樂趣。
不要買瓶香檳藏直到忘記，偶爾要寵寵自己，淺嚐一番。
遠大的目標，放在心中。一路走，一路享受過程。
把握當下，當下就快樂。”

这文章提醒我不要忙着追逐自己的目标，只在乎成功时的快乐；在过程中也讓心情放輕鬆一些，好好享受过程。遇到困难时，要用积极与乐观的态度来面对，把它看成一个训练及挑战，因每一个难题的出现是紧急测验来考验自己的能力是否成熟了，进步了，添加多了。在无风浪时，也不忘居安思危，为雨绸缪。人生中有如一场打不完的战或一本读不完的书，在生活的各方面，都有不同的挑战，克服了一个之后又会有另一个更难的挑战出现。一关过了又一关，一个目标达到后又会设一个更高的目标；在学习方面也一样，学无止境，一定要活到老学到老，所谓‘学如逆水行舟，不进则退。为学患无疑，疑则进也。知不足者好学，耻下问者自满。’如果要达到目标才快乐，一生的快乐少之又少啊。。。

Success is a Journey, Not a Destination

2007-11-07T07:14:00.000-08:00

Tonight, came back from office already 10 pm somethings, really exhausted. Experiencing the limitation of time after working, many personal things and hobbies that I can't allocated my time and energy for. Urge to achieve dreams will make people ignore those things they already have. Just received a picture from a my friend from Hong Kong, Ruby, this picture inspire me to slow down my steps, because success is a journey, it is not a destination, it remind me should allocate time to rest, and enjoy those things I have now, family, relatives, friends, colleague...

失败是通往成功的桥梁

2007-11-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

其实失败并不可怕，可怕的是失败之后没有勇气再站起来！害怕失败是难以成功的，害怕跌倒的小孩是永远学不会走路。失败往往会带给人重大的打击，忧伤与失落会随至而来，它能让软弱的人关起紧闭的大门，不敢再在原地站起来。然而，要做一个刚强的人却需要时间和勇气来越过心中的重重高墙，只要战胜心中的恐惧，才能把阻碍人前进的脚绊石变成脚踏石。决定了的事就要去做，不管将来的结局会是怎样，迈向挑战哪怕只有那么一丁点赢的机会成功，没尽力过就选择放弃等于选择失败。尽力的结果是未知数，任谁也不懂；放弃的结果只有一个。机会有如雅典里的一个雕像，拥有很长的头发在头前，头后却没有头发，是秃的;当机会来的时候就要捉紧，要是流失了，再也追不回。。。。。

青年大专生活营

2007-10-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

Tonight I "accidentally" open the my picture folder and then "accidentally" open the folder called 青年大专生活营, those picture remind me the sweet memories in that camp, got to know a lot of brothers and sisters, we all together listened preaching, ate, played games, chatted and shared each other's life......... very nice and sweet.......
Some of them still keep in touch with me while some are not. I am here to pray and wish you all live with Christ ^_^

Habitudes

2007-10-30T08:06:00.000-07:00

Finish reading Habitudes #1 for second time, it is a good book written by Dr. Tim Elmore, that provide right concepts for Christian who want to be a leader. There are 13 chapters inside, every chapter is very good, those teaching and concepts are base on bible, are practical. It is good for Christian, even everyone. It mentions that people who want to lead others, they have to know how do lead themselves first, it is about the art of self-leadership.

New way of learning and prioritize

2007-10-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

Rushing project for a month, I start to realize that the way that I learned new things was wrong in past 6 years. Last time in form 6 and in university, I was more concentrate in theory part rather practical part, most of the time I just contribute a very small part in my group assignment, I was weak in programming, and I thought after finish notes and whole book I will automatically know how do complete the assignment, I was wrong. I also tried to finish whole book before going for examination, I believed that after I finish reading whole book, I should know how do answer the questions, but every time I also couldn't finish it. I had a thinking like "if I don't finish reading whole book, I won't answer all the questions". While my roommates always got the good result, the reason was they knew how do study important and necessary part first but I was not, even not enough time I still want to study the whole and don't want to choose those necessary part to study first, at the end I couldn't finish study and also missed the important parts. After this month, I start to learn how do prioritize those things I need to complete. Some problem is urgent and important, some is important but not urgent and some is not so important or urgent but necessary. In this month, the urgent and important thing is I have to finish the project within the deadline given, so I need to survive in my job first, so I used short time to learn those important and necessary knowledge and concept first, but don't waste time to read finish whole programming language book, I can learn it step by step more detail after this project is done, because it takes much time; and learning how do fully utilize those resources that I have now, like Internet, seniors and those programming code examples. If I still continue to use my old way to do this project, I believe that the progress of completing this project will be very slow, may over deadline too......

Colleague farewell

2007-10-23T07:19:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I went to Hartz chicken buffet restaurant because of ex-colleagues gathering and farewell meal for James, he will go back to China next month. This was the third time only four of us came out for meal. Still remember the first time four of us went to Korean restaurant in Ampang…… we all chat and chat in car until we lost the way, after asking policemen and people, we reached the restaurant finally, those Korean foods were really new to me, those meat, vegetable and drink….The second time was having burger meal in Burger King in KLIA, me and James order the extra size burger, eat until extremely full….. I was almost vomit….Cathy was the first who resigned and went back to her hometown, Butterworth, then Yi Le, finally James is going to leave too………We tried very hard to adjust free time slot to gather for this time, Yi Le worked on that day, James got meeting, and Cathy came from Butterworth….Due to long time no see, we talk more than eat, hehe, really enjoy the treasure time we all together……After that we went to Halo music cafe……. Really enjoy the environment in there, nice songs, but the drinking menu was quite weird…. A lot of funny drink with funny name…….

I am back!!

2007-10-18T08:51:00.000-07:00

yo!! stopped to write blog for more than 10 months already, recently decided to continue it. Time is flying, so fast I have one year working experience already. Now I can slowly get use to my work, this job really train me a lot, from starting until now, I've never stop to learn new things, many task which is given to me, I need to catch up new skills while completing it; while rushing some task before the given due date, it really stress me a lot; should learn how do handle the stress to prevent hard attack :P
I still considering want to stay here for 2 more years or not, good thing is I can learn a lot, can learn J2EE and oracle, bad thing is the salary ....................

价值

2007-01-06T22:59:00.000-08:00

I found out that personal value (个人价值) is very important for me. When I can't find any value of my life from any field, I felt my direction of my life is lost, like 行尸走肉. Everyone also need to be accpeted and affirm of thier offer, talent and even thier existing. When my work in office is accepted or praise by boss, my value in my work will be increased, same as in many other fields. Recently I just realized it when I am the progress of building for my selfconfidents.
Selfconfident is closely related to personal value, let say, I can contribute myself into certain field, and my contribution is accepted by others, I won't feel that I am useless, then start to find out my value in that field, then after that will help myself to build up my self confident. I plan to find more sources and fields that can let me build up my personal value and self confidents, so that I will able to stand up again when one of the sources has gone. I also found out that if guy of girl only build their confident and value in relatioship, so when the lover leave them, so they will totally fall down, and hard to stand again, cause they lost their personal value that only come from the relatioship, if serious, they will commit suicide.

深思而不长思去做决定，坚持而不是盲目去执行每个决定，有机智而不是死板的达到目的

2006-12-28T06:05:00.000-08:00

"深思而不长思去做决定，坚持而不是盲目去执行每个决定，有机智而不是死板的达到目的",
after going through down period of my life and many failures, I found out that I have a lot of weakness and bad attitudes. When during the period, I start to look into myself and try to understand my own characteristics, I hold some bad characteristics strongly while some good characteristics were not practiced by me. While chatting with my good friend today, I come out the philosophy above that can always remind me, so that I can stay alert to those bad characteristics. The characteristics contains 3 of my weakness and 3 ways to correct them. One of the Chinese idiom is 三思而后行, means that we should think carefully before making a decision, but most of the time I am making decision, I need think a lot, not only think 3 times, maybe is 30 times, 60 times or even longer. Why I use to think a lot, because I hope every decision I make is perfect, only have good effect and no any bad effect at all. But I start to asked myself, do most of the decisions have only good effect and no bad effect at all? I should think deeply in making decision, and minimize the cost and maximize the gain, and ready to pay the cost. After the decision comes out, I need to persist in it, I shouldn't 怨天尢人(complain) while facing problems, if I spend time to complain why don't I spend it to solve the problem. I should treat them as challenges of my life, try my best to overcome it, I believe that I will gain something good after those problems. Persistently to achieve a target also need a lot of braveness. And time by time I should review my decision that I made, check whether I persist in doing the achievement in wrongly way. To achieve my target, I should overcome any barrier wisely, must 足智多谋. There are many way to solving a problem, "one solution can not be used to solve many problems", it always be my reminder as I am a person that very stubborn in choosing a way to solve problems. And I found out that positive thinking is very very important when I am facing problems, negative thinking will bring me a lot of worries and make me harder to solve those problems.
And I also realize that, "afraid of failure won't make people success".

Homesick

2006-11-20T04:19:00.000-08:00

Don't know why recently missing my family, feel like want to go back to stay for a period, but due to my work, I can't back frequently. This year is fourth year I am staying outside, I haven't been homesick heavily before, really want to stay at home for long period, gathering with my parents and brothers. Maybe I face problems and stress from outside, need a shelter. I read a article last time, it mention that our family is a shelter for us to rest and avoid stress from outside, after staying in my home for my first 20 years, now only I truly experience it!!! I start to realize how treasurable for people who has a complete family with love. Family always is the first!!!

The feeling of flying

2006-11-07T04:35:00.000-08:00

It had been long time I didn't have a feeling of silence. I stayed at balcony last night, there was cold wind with little raindrop blew on me, I opened up my arm and stood for long, I were fell by the fall of silence.
And when the wind became stronger and colder, I really felt like flying in the sky......

Long time no exercise

2006-11-07T04:18:00.000-08:00

Today when I was driving back after work, it was cloudy and small raining, but I can see some boys and girls jogging, this view inspire me keeping back the exercise habit, it has been long time I stopped my exercise habit.....
It reminds me that time I was in secondary school, full of energy,exercise everyday, except I had important things to do.
My body slowly become inactive, reaction slow, older and older.......

Discover new attractive places

2006-10-28T21:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to Halo cafe and Wings cafe, the feels to both cafe is very nice. I had never been in these kind of cafe before, but cyber cafe, hehe. There were many songs that were sung by people on the stage, nice song with sweet voice, I was inebriated by the atmosphere there, and I am totally attracted by these cafes.....

Parents are old

2006-10-28T21:06:00.000-07:00

This time went back, I realize that my parents are old, I seldom went back, I have never realized that their age are growing and they look like older and older. Mom and dad spend most of the time to feed thier children, give all their time, strength and heart.
I really can't wait to let them retired and enjoy life earlier......

Treasure of working people

2006-10-28T20:46:00.000-07:00

It had been long time I hadn't back to home, I took a chance to go back to hometown from 21th until 25th. It was very happy holidays since I could reunion with my family and friends. I did eat, shopping, gethering and watch movie crazily, hehe. This opportunity give me a break in my boring daily working routine that make me become a half dead salty fish. But, the happy time is running out fast, now I am in cyberjaya already, continue the routine :((
It was not enough for me to take a rest.....

Who moved my cheese??

2006-10-27T06:13:00.000-07:00

Just finish second reading of the second book that was written by Dr. Spencer Johnson, I strongly feel that I am like Hem, a little human that afraid of change, many negative thinkings in mind. World is changing, it doesn't matter if I notice it or not. I scare changing, I am afraid there will be a bad result after I make a change, so afriad keeps me form doing anything. Sometime what I am afraid of or worry about is never as bad as what I imagine. I need to move beyond my fear by asking myself 'What would I do if I weren't afraid'. This is a big barrier of me, I must overcome it!!

Song is a recorder of feeling

2006-10-27T03:53:00.000-07:00

I don't know other people do experience the power of song. Sometimes, I did count those matters that were happened in past. In the my secondary shool and university life, there were a lot of special matters happen, those matters that gave me unforgettable feeling, especially those sad feeling. In every period of my life, I listen different songs. So when one unforgettable sad matter happened in the period that I was listening some songs; in future, everytime I listen again those songs, they will bring me back the feelings that as fresh as just happen!! I will continue to keep those 'special songs' that record my treasure feelings.

The Present

2006-10-27T03:43:00.000-07:00

Last few days, I had just re-read a book called 'The Present', which written by Dr. Spenser Johnson. This book reminds me once again about the attitude of doing my work. I was not really experience the message inside at the first time I read it; now I truely experience it after working over 2 months. Although I already know the thread, but I still need to work it out slowly. I hope that I will get The Present and fully experience it in future.......

Missing something??

2006-10-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

Recall back the time that I was a child, I had a treasure characteristic which I don't have now, it is called 'never give up'. I learned to walk, run, jump, bicycling and etc when I was small. I had never think how many failures I had done, I was not affected by those failures even though they were a lot!! I still remember those serious accidents I did when I was learning many style of cycling, especially I put off my hand while cycling. I learned from the failures and I do it better and better.
But when I grew up, I lost this characteristic, I fear to learn new things, because I scare failure. Failure make me feel uncomfortable and crash my self-confidence. I will give up easily, some times I give up even I haven't take a challange. My confidence is also affected my past failures, so as time goes, my thinking become more and more negative. I feel that my thinking is like a dead man, not as young man think, 'Everytime is possible'.
I need to adjust the view of failure, and dare to fail in order to success in future. Furthermore I want to discover the treasure chest, 'Never Give Up', that was threw long time ago.

Decision with stress

2006-10-18T07:55:00.000-07:00

I am a person that think so much when I want to make a decision, I will think about the effects of the decision, predict the what things may happen and how will I handle it, have I consider it enough? Find out the reasons why I choose this way but not that way. Is the way will give me more benefit and less bad effect?
I found out that making good decision is very important; I can easily solve a problem, and save my time and other resources with a right decision; I may not able to solve a problem with wrong decision.
Decision become much more important when I planning what am I going to do in future to achieve my target.
And I found out that passion comes after decision is a golden key towards my target.

Opportunity is reserve for people who are prepared

2006-10-03T05:44:00.000-07:00

Opportunity, I can't hold it while it is not for me; I can't keep it while it reachs the time of depart; most of the time it won't return after I miss it. There are a lot of opportunities pass by me, sometimes I took them, sometimes I missed and I felt regreted, sometimes opportunities come to me too early, I wanted to take them but I couldn't, due to I hadn't prepared to take the opportunities. I need to keep on to move forward and improve myself to achieve my target, so that I can leverage my success with the opportunities I take in future....

hobbies disappear??

2006-10-02T07:32:00.000-07:00

Recently just realized that I have already stop many hobbies when I am growing, especially after working. I slowly change my thinking and hobbies as I grow up, and I start seek my dreams. In this process, I already stop many passioned hobbies unconsciously. In this busy life, time management is very important! How do I maintian my hobbies as the same time achieving my dreams???
Hobby is one of the good way to release stress too and make life more enjoy.

what a nice and relaxing camp

2006-10-01T01:24:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I really myself never grow up, already 20++ years old, will play until so crazy until like a child. Last few weeks, I went to a camp in Rantau, with my brothers and sisters in Christ. It was a nice camp, long time I hadn't play until as crazy as this camp. It is really relaxing camp and I can enjoy the fellowship between brothers and sisters. I thankgiving that I have them in my study life and working life. They are some of the firework in my life, hehe.

Another important field

2006-09-28T10:03:00.000-07:00

Since I was small, I always heard that parents and relatives say that study is very important, even our education policy emphasize 'Skill', like writing, speaking skills, mathematic skills and etc. Why I say that, let's think about the UPSR, primary school government examination, PMR, SPM and STPM, that doesn't emphasize courses that teach us how do handle conflict between us and people around us, how win friends, how do stop worries and how do influence people. Until I read a book called 'How do win friends and influence people', written by Dale Carnegie, I started to realize that social skills very important for one towards success!! I believe that everyone needs social skills no matter who they are....

Financial management

2006-09-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

After started to work, only found out that money is hard to earn. In last month, is the first time I was in difficult time, accounts empty, no money source. Most of the meals were bread and oat, it really made me having perfect shape of my body, hehe. I am really happy also, because I truely experience the idiom, 'friend in need is the friend indeed', I sincerely thank those were helping me in my hard time. In this experience, I fully understand how important of financial control and planning. It made me think seriously about my future, what kind of future I want, what way I have to choose to achieve my destination, how do I go into B and I categories, how long I can take to achieve them.......

It is challange!!!!

2006-09-27T07:13:00.000-07:00

It had been a long time that I didn't update my blog. In the last few weeks, I start to get use of those working life. Company having rush time until now, work OT many times, even working until mid-night and on weekend :-( not enough sleep......
but when I see in another way, I learn a lot of things.
Just receive a big job from company, so stress, need to due with customer too............

Convocation

2006-08-24T04:50:00.000-07:00

The feeling of convocation is still fresh although it was held on almost 2 weeks ago, woke up early in the morning, wore smartly and preferred not to take breakfast and went to MMU early. After went into hall, my friends and I needed to sit separately with our parents. In the hall, we needed to listen those speeches, although I felt tired and painful after few hours, it didn't reduce my excitement, wowo!! It was not over yet, the most happy time is after we all went out from the hall, almost every step I took chances to take photo with friends in MMU, I could see everyone of them also wore a big smile. On that day, I didn’t feel hungry and walk around to take photo with them, my parents, lecturers and tutors. I wore blazer and robe in the hot day, yet I didn’t feel hot in that time. I couldn’t stop to take photo even after my camera was out of power. After that we all went back around 5 p.m. That day I was really so tired and felt sleepy while driving. After reach my cousin’s house, I slept on the sofa for few hours….

Bon Voyage

2006-08-23T06:48:00.000-07:00

Recall the memories in past 3 years, when I was studying in MMU, they contain sadness and happiness, both also keep in my mind now clearly. Sad memories are those things that I had done wrongly, they always remind me so that I should handle my life better and better; happy memories make me much more treasure what I have now and had before. In the 3 years, I thankful that God had arranged a group of friends for me, those friends are the core of my sweat memories. 2 of them were my room mates for 3 years, in that duration, due to my limitation knowledge in IT, I couldn’t handle my studies and many times I tried my best but couldn’t handle the parts of assignments and project, yet they didn’t blame me. I frequently asked them to teach me and guild me in my studies, yet they were willing to do it until now. I am here to say thanks to you, Yu shu and Pit Yaw, thank you very much! Yu Shu departed from Malaysia to Korea, at 6 p.m. today. He still in aeroplane now. Today I strongly feel the mood of departing. Last time we all did study, exercise, shopping in KL and have meal together, those memories I will keep all the memories as new as yesterday!!!

another lonely day

2006-08-22T06:07:00.000-07:00

Today training was easier than yesterday. After work, I took some bread and watched Taiwan series, what a very relaxing life. But I really not satisfy with this kind of life, no any target and no mood, really hope that I can break through this life style, do somethings that I am interested and put all my passion into them, make use of every second. In this down period, my homesick is very serious! Now only find out that my close friends, ex-class mates and ex-course mates have gone. Totally different feeling in cyberia now.......

today is a easy day

2006-08-21T09:29:00.000-07:00

just got to know that this week is training week, so temporary I need not the care about the job in my hand. but sometimes felt sleepy in the training time :(

I am in a lost world now!!!

2006-08-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

After working for 3 days, felt that hard to get use to working life, wake early, whole day sat in office...... Everyday feel tired after work, no exercise, sit on chair and do nothing. The world is very big, but yet I have no any direction......