Success is a Journey, Not a Destination

Tonight, came back from office already 10 pm somethings, really exhausted. Experiencing the limitation of time after working, many personal things and hobbies that I can't allocated my time and energy for. Urge to achieve dreams will make people ignore those things they already have. Just received a picture from a my friend from Hong Kong, Ruby, this picture inspire me to slow down my steps, because success is a journey, it is not a destination, it remind me should allocate time to rest, and enjoy those things I have now, family, relatives, friends, colleague...

失败是通往成功的桥梁

其实失败并不可怕，可怕的是失败之后没有勇气再站起来！ 害怕失败是难以成功的，害怕跌倒的小孩是永远学不会走路。失败往往会带给人重大的打击，忧伤与失落会随至而来，它能让软弱的人关起紧闭的大门，不敢再在原地站起来。然而，要做一个刚强的人却需要时间和勇气来越过心中的重重高墙，只要战胜心中的恐惧，才能把阻碍人前进的脚绊石变成脚踏石。决定了的事就要去做，不管将来的结局会是怎样，迈向挑战哪怕只有那么一丁点赢的机会成功，没尽力过就选择放弃等于选择失败。尽力的结果是未知数，任谁也不懂；放弃的结果只有一个。机会有如雅典里的一个雕像，拥有很长的头发在头前，头后却没有头发，是秃的;当机会来的时候就要捉紧，要是流失了，再也追不回。。。。。

青年大专生活营

Tonight I "accidentally" open the my picture folder and then "accidentally" open the folder called 青年大专生活营, those picture remind me the sweet memories in that camp, got to know a lot of brothers and sisters, we all together listened preaching, ate, played games, chatted and shared each other's life......... very nice and sweet.......
Some of them still keep in touch with me while some are not. I am here to pray and wish you all live with Christ ^_^

Habitudes

Finish reading Habitudes #1 for second time, it is a good book written by Dr. Tim Elmore, that provide right concepts for Christian who want to be a leader. There are 13 chapters inside, every chapter is very good, those teaching and concepts are base on bible, are practical. It is good for Christian, even everyone. It mentions that people who want to lead others, they have to know how do lead themselves first, it is about the art of self-leadership.

New way of learning and prioritize

Rushing project for a month, I start to realize that the way that I learned new things was wrong in past 6 years. Last time in form 6 and in university, I was more concentrate in theory part rather practical part, most of the time I just contribute a very small part in my group assignment, I was weak in programming, and I thought after finish notes and whole book I will automatically know how do complete the assignment, I was wrong. I also tried to finish whole book before going for examination, I believed that after I finish reading whole book, I should know how do answer the questions, but every time I also couldn't finish it. I had a thinking like "if I don't finish reading whole book, I won't answer all the questions". While my roommates always got the good result, the reason was they knew how do study important and necessary part first but I was not, even not enough time I still want to study the whole and don't want to choose those necessary part to study first, at the end I couldn't finish study and also missed the important parts. After this month, I start to learn how do prioritize those things I need to complete. Some problem is urgent and important, some is important but not urgent and some is not so important or urgent but necessary. In this month, the urgent and important thing is I have to finish the project within the deadline given, so I need to survive in my job first, so I used short time to learn those important and necessary knowledge and concept first, but don't waste time to read finish whole programming language book, I can learn it step by step more detail after this project is done, because it takes much time; and learning how do fully utilize those resources that I have now, like Internet, seniors and those programming code examples. If I still continue to use my old way to do this project, I believe that the progress of completing this project will be very slow, may over deadline too......

Colleague farewell

Last Saturday, I went to Hartz chicken buffet restaurant because of ex-colleagues gathering and farewell meal for James, he will go back to China next month. This was the third time only four of us came out for meal. Still remember the first time four of us went to Korean restaurant in Ampang…… we all chat and chat in car until we lost the way, after asking policemen and people, we reached the restaurant finally, those Korean foods were really new to me, those meat, vegetable and drink….The second time was having burger meal in Burger King in KLIA, me and James order the extra size burger, eat until extremely full….. I was almost vomit….Cathy was the first who resigned and went back to her hometown, Butterworth, then Yi Le, finally James is going to leave too………We tried very hard to adjust free time slot to gather for this time, Yi Le worked on that day, James got meeting, and Cathy came from Butterworth….Due to long time no see, we talk more than eat, hehe, really enjoy the treasure time we all together……After that we went to Halo music cafe……. Really enjoy the environment in there, nice songs, but the drinking menu was quite weird…. A lot of funny drink with funny name…….

I am back!!

yo!! stopped to write blog for more than 10 months already, recently decided to continue it. Time is flying, so fast I have one year working experience already. Now I can slowly get use to my work, this job really train me a lot, from starting until now, I've never stop to learn new things, many task which is given to me, I need to catch up new skills while completing it; while rushing some task before the given due date, it really stress me a lot; should learn how do handle the stress to prevent hard attack :P
I still considering want to stay here for 2 more years or not, good thing is I can learn a lot, can learn J2EE and oracle, bad thing is the salary ....................

价值

I found out that personal value (个人价值) is very important for me. When I can't find any value of my life from any field, I felt my direction of my life is lost, like 行尸走肉. Everyone also need to be accpeted and affirm of thier offer, talent and even thier existing. When my work in office is accepted or praise by boss, my value in my work will be increased, same as in many other fields. Recently I just realized it when I am the progress of building for my selfconfidents.
Selfconfident is closely related to personal value, let say, I can contribute myself into certain field, and my contribution is accepted by others, I won't feel that I am useless, then start to find out my value in that field, then after that will help myself to build up my self confident. I plan to find more sources and fields that can let me build up my personal value and self confidents, so that I will able to stand up again when one of the sources has gone. I also found out that if guy of girl only build their confident and value in relatioship, so when the lover leave them, so they will totally fall down, and hard to stand again, cause they lost their personal value that only come from the relatioship, if serious, they will commit suicide.