Success is a Journey, Not a Destination

Tonight, came back from office already 10 pm somethings, really exhausted. Experiencing the limitation of time after working, many personal things and hobbies that I can't allocated my time and energy for. Urge to achieve dreams will make people ignore those things they already have. Just received a picture from a my friend from Hong Kong, Ruby, this picture inspire me to slow down my steps, because success is a journey, it is not a destination, it remind me should allocate time to rest, and enjoy those things I have now, family, relatives, friends, colleague...

失败是通往成功的桥梁

其实失败并不可怕，可怕的是失败之后没有勇气再站起来！ 害怕失败是难以成功的，害怕跌倒的小孩是永远学不会走路。失败往往会带给人重大的打击，忧伤与失落会随至而来，它能让软弱的人关起紧闭的大门，不敢再在原地站起来。然而，要做一个刚强的人却需要时间和勇气来越过心中的重重高墙，只要战胜心中的恐惧，才能把阻碍人前进的脚绊石变成脚踏石。决定了的事就要去做，不管将来的结局会是怎样，迈向挑战哪怕只有那么一丁点赢的机会成功，没尽力过就选择放弃等于选择失败。尽力的结果是未知数，任谁也不懂；放弃的结果只有一个。机会有如雅典里的一个雕像，拥有很长的头发在头前，头后却没有头发，是秃的;当机会来的时候就要捉紧，要是流失了，再也追不回。。。。。

青年大专生活营

Tonight I "accidentally" open the my picture folder and then "accidentally" open the folder called 青年大专生活营, those picture remind me the sweet memories in that camp, got to know a lot of brothers and sisters, we all together listened preaching, ate, played games, chatted and shared each other's life......... very nice and sweet.......
Some of them still keep in touch with me while some are not. I am here to pray and wish you all live with Christ ^_^

Habitudes

Finish reading Habitudes #1 for second time, it is a good book written by Dr. Tim Elmore, that provide right concepts for Christian who want to be a leader. There are 13 chapters inside, every chapter is very good, those teaching and concepts are base on bible, are practical. It is good for Christian, even everyone. It mentions that people who want to lead others, they have to know how do lead themselves first, it is about the art of self-leadership.

New way of learning and prioritize

Rushing project for a month, I start to realize that the way that I learned new things was wrong in past 6 years. Last time in form 6 and in university, I was more concentrate in theory part rather practical part, most of the time I just contribute a very small part in my group assignment, I was weak in programming, and I thought after finish notes and whole book I will automatically know how do complete the assignment, I was wrong. I also tried to finish whole book before going for examination, I believed that after I finish reading whole book, I should know how do answer the questions, but every time I also couldn't finish it. I had a thinking like "if I don't finish reading whole book, I won't answer all the questions". While my roommates always got the good result, the reason was they knew how do study important and necessary part first but I was not, even not enough time I still want to study the whole and don't want to choose those necessary part to study first, at the end I couldn't finish study and also missed the important parts. After this month, I start to learn how do prioritize those things I need to complete. Some problem is urgent and important, some is important but not urgent and some is not so important or urgent but necessary. In this month, the urgent and important thing is I have to finish the project within the deadline given, so I need to survive in my job first, so I used short time to learn those important and necessary knowledge and concept first, but don't waste time to read finish whole programming language book, I can learn it step by step more detail after this project is done, because it takes much time; and learning how do fully utilize those resources that I have now, like Internet, seniors and those programming code examples. If I still continue to use my old way to do this project, I believe that the progress of completing this project will be very slow, may over deadline too......

Colleague farewell

Last Saturday, I went to Hartz chicken buffet restaurant because of ex-colleagues gathering and farewell meal for James, he will go back to China next month. This was the third time only four of us came out for meal. Still remember the first time four of us went to Korean restaurant in Ampang…… we all chat and chat in car until we lost the way, after asking policemen and people, we reached the restaurant finally, those Korean foods were really new to me, those meat, vegetable and drink….The second time was having burger meal in Burger King in KLIA, me and James order the extra size burger, eat until extremely full….. I was almost vomit….Cathy was the first who resigned and went back to her hometown, Butterworth, then Yi Le, finally James is going to leave too………We tried very hard to adjust free time slot to gather for this time, Yi Le worked on that day, James got meeting, and Cathy came from Butterworth….Due to long time no see, we talk more than eat, hehe, really enjoy the treasure time we all together……After that we went to Halo music cafe……. Really enjoy the environment in there, nice songs, but the drinking menu was quite weird…. A lot of funny drink with funny name…….

I am back!!

yo!! stopped to write blog for more than 10 months already, recently decided to continue it. Time is flying, so fast I have one year working experience already. Now I can slowly get use to my work, this job really train me a lot, from starting until now, I've never stop to learn new things, many task which is given to me, I need to catch up new skills while completing it; while rushing some task before the given due date, it really stress me a lot; should learn how do handle the stress to prevent hard attack :P
I still considering want to stay here for 2 more years or not, good thing is I can learn a lot, can learn J2EE and oracle, bad thing is the salary ....................

价值

I found out that personal value (个人价值) is very important for me. When I can't find any value of my life from any field, I felt my direction of my life is lost, like 行尸走肉. Everyone also need to be accpeted and affirm of thier offer, talent and even thier existing. When my work in office is accepted or praise by boss, my value in my work will be increased, same as in many other fields. Recently I just realized it when I am the progress of building for my selfconfidents.
Selfconfident is closely related to personal value, let say, I can contribute myself into certain field, and my contribution is accepted by others, I won't feel that I am useless, then start to find out my value in that field, then after that will help myself to build up my self confident. I plan to find more sources and fields that can let me build up my personal value and self confidents, so that I will able to stand up again when one of the sources has gone. I also found out that if guy of girl only build their confident and value in relatioship, so when the lover leave them, so they will totally fall down, and hard to stand again, cause they lost their personal value that only come from the relatioship, if serious, they will commit suicide.

深思而不长思去做决定，坚持而不是盲目去执行每个决定，有机智而不是死板的达到目的

"深思而不长思去做决定，坚持而不是盲目去执行每个决定，有机智而不是死板的达到目的",
after going through down period of my life and many failures, I found out that I have a lot of weakness and bad attitudes. When during the period, I start to look into myself and try to understand my own characteristics, I hold some bad characteristics strongly while some good characteristics were not practiced by me. While chatting with my good friend today, I come out the philosophy above that can always remind me, so that I can stay alert to those bad characteristics. The characteristics contains 3 of my weakness and 3 ways to correct them. One of the Chinese idiom is 三思而后行, means that we should think carefully before making a decision, but most of the time I am making decision, I need think a lot, not only think 3 times, maybe is 30 times, 60 times or even longer. Why I use to think a lot, because I hope every decision I make is perfect, only have good effect and no any bad effect at all. But I start to asked myself, do most of the decisions have only good effect and no bad effect at all? I should think deeply in making decision, and minimize the cost and maximize the gain, and ready to pay the cost. After the decision comes out, I need to persist in it, I shouldn't 怨天尢人(complain) while facing problems, if I spend time to complain why don't I spend it to solve the problem. I should treat them as challenges of my life, try my best to overcome it, I believe that I will gain something good after those problems. Persistently to achieve a target also need a lot of braveness. And time by time I should review my decision that I made, check whether I persist in doing the achievement in wrongly way. To achieve my target, I should overcome any barrier wisely, must 足智多谋. There are many way to solving a problem, "one solution can not be used to solve many problems", it always be my reminder as I am a person that very stubborn in choosing a way to solve problems. And I found out that positive thinking is very very important when I am facing problems, negative thinking will bring me a lot of worries and make me harder to solve those problems.
And I also realize that, "afraid of failure won't make people success".

Homesick

Don't know why recently missing my family, feel like want to go back to stay for a period, but due to my work, I can't back frequently. This year is fourth year I am staying outside, I haven't been homesick heavily before, really want to stay at home for long period, gathering with my parents and brothers. Maybe I face problems and stress from outside, need a shelter. I read a article last time, it mention that our family is a shelter for us to rest and avoid stress from outside, after staying in my home for my first 20 years, now only I truly experience it!!! I start to realize how treasurable for people who has a complete family with love. Family always is the first!!!

The feeling of flying

It had been long time I didn't have a feeling of silence. I stayed at balcony last night, there was cold wind with little raindrop blew on me, I opened up my arm and stood for long, I were fell by the fall of silence.
And when the wind became stronger and colder, I really felt like flying in the sky......

Long time no exercise

Today when I was driving back after work, it was cloudy and small raining, but I can see some boys and girls jogging, this view inspire me keeping back the exercise habit, it has been long time I stopped my exercise habit.....
It reminds me that time I was in secondary school, full of energy,exercise everyday, except I had important things to do.
My body slowly become inactive, reaction slow, older and older.......

Discover new attractive places

Yesterday I went to Halo cafe and Wings cafe, the feels to both cafe is very nice. I had never been in these kind of cafe before, but cyber cafe, hehe. There were many songs that were sung by people on the stage, nice song with sweet voice, I was inebriated by the atmosphere there, and I am totally attracted by these cafes.....

Parents are old

This time went back, I realize that my parents are old, I seldom went back, I have never realized that their age are growing and they look like older and older. Mom and dad spend most of the time to feed thier children, give all their time, strength and heart.
I really can't wait to let them retired and enjoy life earlier......

Treasure of working people

It had been long time I hadn't back to home, I took a chance to go back to hometown from 21th until 25th. It was very happy holidays since I could reunion with my family and friends. I did eat, shopping, gethering and watch movie crazily, hehe. This opportunity give me a break in my boring daily working routine that make me become a half dead salty fish. But, the happy time is running out fast, now I am in cyberjaya already, continue the routine :((
It was not enough for me to take a rest.....

Who moved my cheese??

Just finish second reading of the second book that was written by Dr. Spencer Johnson, I strongly feel that I am like Hem, a little human that afraid of change, many negative thinkings in mind. World is changing, it doesn't matter if I notice it or not. I scare changing, I am afraid there will be a bad result after I make a change, so afriad keeps me form doing anything. Sometime what I am afraid of or worry about is never as bad as what I imagine. I need to move beyond my fear by asking myself 'What would I do if I weren't afraid'. This is a big barrier of me, I must overcome it!!

Song is a recorder of feeling

I don't know other people do experience the power of song. Sometimes, I did count those matters that were happened in past. In the my secondary shool and university life, there were a lot of special matters happen, those matters that gave me unforgettable feeling, especially those sad feeling. In every period of my life, I listen different songs. So when one unforgettable sad matter happened in the period that I was listening some songs; in future, everytime I listen again those songs, they will bring me back the feelings that as fresh as just happen!! I will continue to keep those 'special songs' that record my treasure feelings.

The Present

Last few days, I had just re-read a book called 'The Present', which written by Dr. Spenser Johnson. This book reminds me once again about the attitude of doing my work. I was not really experience the message inside at the first time I read it; now I truely experience it after working over 2 months. Although I already know the thread, but I still need to work it out slowly. I hope that I will get The Present and fully experience it in future.......

Missing something??

Recall back the time that I was a child, I had a treasure characteristic which I don't have now, it is called 'never give up'. I learned to walk, run, jump, bicycling and etc when I was small. I had never think how many failures I had done, I was not affected by those failures even though they were a lot!! I still remember those serious accidents I did when I was learning many style of cycling, especially I put off my hand while cycling. I learned from the failures and I do it better and better.
But when I grew up, I lost this characteristic, I fear to learn new things, because I scare failure. Failure make me feel uncomfortable and crash my self-confidence. I will give up easily, some times I give up even I haven't take a challange. My confidence is also affected my past failures, so as time goes, my thinking become more and more negative. I feel that my thinking is like a dead man, not as young man think, 'Everytime is possible'.
I need to adjust the view of failure, and dare to fail in order to success in future. Furthermore I want to discover the treasure chest, 'Never Give Up', that was threw long time ago.

Decision with stress

I am a person that think so much when I want to make a decision, I will think about the effects of the decision, predict the what things may happen and how will I handle it, have I consider it enough? Find out the reasons why I choose this way but not that way. Is the way will give me more benefit and less bad effect?
I found out that making good decision is very important; I can easily solve a problem, and save my time and other resources with a right decision; I may not able to solve a problem with wrong decision.
Decision become much more important when I planning what am I going to do in future to achieve my target.
And I found out that passion comes after decision is a golden key towards my target.