深思而不长思去做决定，坚持而不是盲目去执行每个决定，有机智而不是死板的达到目的

"深思而不长思去做决定，坚持而不是盲目去执行每个决定，有机智而不是死板的达到目的",
after going through down period of my life and many failures, I found out that I have a lot of weakness and bad attitudes. When during the period, I start to look into myself and try to understand my own characteristics, I hold some bad characteristics strongly while some good characteristics were not practiced by me. While chatting with my good friend today, I come out the philosophy above that can always remind me, so that I can stay alert to those bad characteristics. The characteristics contains 3 of my weakness and 3 ways to correct them. One of the Chinese idiom is 三思而后行, means that we should think carefully before making a decision, but most of the time I am making decision, I need think a lot, not only think 3 times, maybe is 30 times, 60 times or even longer. Why I use to think a lot, because I hope every decision I make is perfect, only have good effect and no any bad effect at all. But I start to asked myself, do most of the decisions have only good effect and no bad effect at all? I should think deeply in making decision, and minimize the cost and maximize the gain, and ready to pay the cost. After the decision comes out, I need to persist in it, I shouldn't 怨天尢人(complain) while facing problems, if I spend time to complain why don't I spend it to solve the problem. I should treat them as challenges of my life, try my best to overcome it, I believe that I will gain something good after those problems. Persistently to achieve a target also need a lot of braveness. And time by time I should review my decision that I made, check whether I persist in doing the achievement in wrongly way. To achieve my target, I should overcome any barrier wisely, must 足智多谋. There are many way to solving a problem, "one solution can not be used to solve many problems", it always be my reminder as I am a person that very stubborn in choosing a way to solve problems. And I found out that positive thinking is very very important when I am facing problems, negative thinking will bring me a lot of worries and make me harder to solve those problems.
And I also realize that, "afraid of failure won't make people success".

Homesick

Don't know why recently missing my family, feel like want to go back to stay for a period, but due to my work, I can't back frequently. This year is fourth year I am staying outside, I haven't been homesick heavily before, really want to stay at home for long period, gathering with my parents and brothers. Maybe I face problems and stress from outside, need a shelter. I read a article last time, it mention that our family is a shelter for us to rest and avoid stress from outside, after staying in my home for my first 20 years, now only I truly experience it!!! I start to realize how treasurable for people who has a complete family with love. Family always is the first!!!

The feeling of flying

It had been long time I didn't have a feeling of silence. I stayed at balcony last night, there was cold wind with little raindrop blew on me, I opened up my arm and stood for long, I were fell by the fall of silence.
And when the wind became stronger and colder, I really felt like flying in the sky......

Long time no exercise

Today when I was driving back after work, it was cloudy and small raining, but I can see some boys and girls jogging, this view inspire me keeping back the exercise habit, it has been long time I stopped my exercise habit.....
It reminds me that time I was in secondary school, full of energy,exercise everyday, except I had important things to do.
My body slowly become inactive, reaction slow, older and older.......

Discover new attractive places

Yesterday I went to Halo cafe and Wings cafe, the feels to both cafe is very nice. I had never been in these kind of cafe before, but cyber cafe, hehe. There were many songs that were sung by people on the stage, nice song with sweet voice, I was inebriated by the atmosphere there, and I am totally attracted by these cafes.....

Parents are old

This time went back, I realize that my parents are old, I seldom went back, I have never realized that their age are growing and they look like older and older. Mom and dad spend most of the time to feed thier children, give all their time, strength and heart.
I really can't wait to let them retired and enjoy life earlier......

Treasure of working people

It had been long time I hadn't back to home, I took a chance to go back to hometown from 21th until 25th. It was very happy holidays since I could reunion with my family and friends. I did eat, shopping, gethering and watch movie crazily, hehe. This opportunity give me a break in my boring daily working routine that make me become a half dead salty fish. But, the happy time is running out fast, now I am in cyberjaya already, continue the routine :((
It was not enough for me to take a rest.....

Who moved my cheese??

Just finish second reading of the second book that was written by Dr. Spencer Johnson, I strongly feel that I am like Hem, a little human that afraid of change, many negative thinkings in mind. World is changing, it doesn't matter if I notice it or not. I scare changing, I am afraid there will be a bad result after I make a change, so afriad keeps me form doing anything. Sometime what I am afraid of or worry about is never as bad as what I imagine. I need to move beyond my fear by asking myself 'What would I do if I weren't afraid'. This is a big barrier of me, I must overcome it!!

Song is a recorder of feeling

I don't know other people do experience the power of song. Sometimes, I did count those matters that were happened in past. In the my secondary shool and university life, there were a lot of special matters happen, those matters that gave me unforgettable feeling, especially those sad feeling. In every period of my life, I listen different songs. So when one unforgettable sad matter happened in the period that I was listening some songs; in future, everytime I listen again those songs, they will bring me back the feelings that as fresh as just happen!! I will continue to keep those 'special songs' that record my treasure feelings.

The Present

Last few days, I had just re-read a book called 'The Present', which written by Dr. Spenser Johnson. This book reminds me once again about the attitude of doing my work. I was not really experience the message inside at the first time I read it; now I truely experience it after working over 2 months. Although I already know the thread, but I still need to work it out slowly. I hope that I will get The Present and fully experience it in future.......

Missing something??

Recall back the time that I was a child, I had a treasure characteristic which I don't have now, it is called 'never give up'. I learned to walk, run, jump, bicycling and etc when I was small. I had never think how many failures I had done, I was not affected by those failures even though they were a lot!! I still remember those serious accidents I did when I was learning many style of cycling, especially I put off my hand while cycling. I learned from the failures and I do it better and better.
But when I grew up, I lost this characteristic, I fear to learn new things, because I scare failure. Failure make me feel uncomfortable and crash my self-confidence. I will give up easily, some times I give up even I haven't take a challange. My confidence is also affected my past failures, so as time goes, my thinking become more and more negative. I feel that my thinking is like a dead man, not as young man think, 'Everytime is possible'.
I need to adjust the view of failure, and dare to fail in order to success in future. Furthermore I want to discover the treasure chest, 'Never Give Up', that was threw long time ago.

Decision with stress

I am a person that think so much when I want to make a decision, I will think about the effects of the decision, predict the what things may happen and how will I handle it, have I consider it enough? Find out the reasons why I choose this way but not that way. Is the way will give me more benefit and less bad effect?
I found out that making good decision is very important; I can easily solve a problem, and save my time and other resources with a right decision; I may not able to solve a problem with wrong decision.
Decision become much more important when I planning what am I going to do in future to achieve my target.
And I found out that passion comes after decision is a golden key towards my target.

Opportunity is reserve for people who are prepared

Opportunity, I can't hold it while it is not for me; I can't keep it while it reachs the time of depart; most of the time it won't return after I miss it. There are a lot of opportunities pass by me, sometimes I took them, sometimes I missed and I felt regreted, sometimes opportunities come to me too early, I wanted to take them but I couldn't, due to I hadn't prepared to take the opportunities. I need to keep on to move forward and improve myself to achieve my target, so that I can leverage my success with the opportunities I take in future....

hobbies disappear??

Recently just realized that I have already stop many hobbies when I am growing, especially after working. I slowly change my thinking and hobbies as I grow up, and I start seek my dreams. In this process, I already stop many passioned hobbies unconsciously. In this busy life, time management is very important! How do I maintian my hobbies as the same time achieving my dreams???
Hobby is one of the good way to release stress too and make life more enjoy.

what a nice and relaxing camp

Sometimes I really myself never grow up, already 20++ years old, will play until so crazy until like a child. Last few weeks, I went to a camp in Rantau, with my brothers and sisters in Christ. It was a nice camp, long time I hadn't play until as crazy as this camp. It is really relaxing camp and I can enjoy the fellowship between brothers and sisters. I thankgiving that I have them in my study life and working life. They are some of the firework in my life, hehe.

Another important field

Since I was small, I always heard that parents and relatives say that study is very important, even our education policy emphasize 'Skill', like writing, speaking skills, mathematic skills and etc. Why I say that, let's think about the UPSR, primary school government examination, PMR, SPM and STPM, that doesn't emphasize courses that teach us how do handle conflict between us and people around us, how win friends, how do stop worries and how do influence people. Until I read a book called 'How do win friends and influence people', written by Dale Carnegie, I started to realize that social skills very important for one towards success!! I believe that everyone needs social skills no matter who they are....

Financial management

After started to work, only found out that money is hard to earn. In last month, is the first time I was in difficult time, accounts empty, no money source. Most of the meals were bread and oat, it really made me having perfect shape of my body, hehe. I am really happy also, because I truely experience the idiom, 'friend in need is the friend indeed', I sincerely thank those were helping me in my hard time. In this experience, I fully understand how important of financial control and planning. It made me think seriously about my future, what kind of future I want, what way I have to choose to achieve my destination, how do I go into B and I categories, how long I can take to achieve them.......

It is challange!!!!

It had been a long time that I didn't update my blog. In the last few weeks, I start to get use of those working life. Company having rush time until now, work OT many times, even working until mid-night and on weekend :-( not enough sleep......
but when I see in another way, I learn a lot of things.
Just receive a big job from company, so stress, need to due with customer too............

Convocation

The feeling of convocation is still fresh although it was held on almost 2 weeks ago, woke up early in the morning, wore smartly and preferred not to take breakfast and went to MMU early. After went into hall, my friends and I needed to sit separately with our parents. In the hall, we needed to listen those speeches, although I felt tired and painful after few hours, it didn't reduce my excitement, wowo!! It was not over yet, the most happy time is after we all went out from the hall, almost every step I took chances to take photo with friends in MMU, I could see everyone of them also wore a big smile. On that day, I didn’t feel hungry and walk around to take photo with them, my parents, lecturers and tutors. I wore blazer and robe in the hot day, yet I didn’t feel hot in that time. I couldn’t stop to take photo even after my camera was out of power. After that we all went back around 5 p.m. That day I was really so tired and felt sleepy while driving. After reach my cousin’s house, I slept on the sofa for few hours….

Bon Voyage

Recall the memories in past 3 years, when I was studying in MMU, they contain sadness and happiness, both also keep in my mind now clearly. Sad memories are those things that I had done wrongly, they always remind me so that I should handle my life better and better; happy memories make me much more treasure what I have now and had before. In the 3 years, I thankful that God had arranged a group of friends for me, those friends are the core of my sweat memories. 2 of them were my room mates for 3 years, in that duration, due to my limitation knowledge in IT, I couldn’t handle my studies and many times I tried my best but couldn’t handle the parts of assignments and project, yet they didn’t blame me. I frequently asked them to teach me and guild me in my studies, yet they were willing to do it until now. I am here to say thanks to you, Yu shu and Pit Yaw, thank you very much! Yu Shu departed from Malaysia to Korea, at 6 p.m. today. He still in aeroplane now. Today I strongly feel the mood of departing. Last time we all did study, exercise, shopping in KL and have meal together, those memories I will keep all the memories as new as yesterday!!!

another lonely day

Today training was easier than yesterday. After work, I took some bread and watched Taiwan series, what a very relaxing life. But I really not satisfy with this kind of life, no any target and no mood, really hope that I can break through this life style, do somethings that I am interested and put all my passion into them, make use of every second. In this down period, my homesick is very serious! Now only find out that my close friends, ex-class mates and ex-course mates have gone. Totally different feeling in cyberia now.......

today is a easy day

just got to know that this week is training week, so temporary I need not the care about the job in my hand. but sometimes felt sleepy in the training time :(

I am in a lost world now!!!

After working for 3 days, felt that hard to get use to working life, wake early, whole day sat in office...... Everyday feel tired after work, no exercise, sit on chair and do nothing. The world is very big, but yet I have no any direction......